I’m a pool of imperfections. I’m scare of many things. I make the same mistake twice. I don’t always put a good foot forward and I hold things off until the last minute. Sometimes I says mean things even though I don’t mean to. I can be messy, clumsy, and confusing at times. But I’m a girl with many values. I do good deeds even though luck is rarely on my side. I give a lot more than I receive and that’s alright with me. I laugh a little too loud and cry too easily. I live to love, to give, and to make a little difference for my love ones. Though I might not be the best at everything, I had always tried my best. I believe it’s ok to fail, be bad at things, be afraid, and be vulnerable. Cause we all fall and get hurt. But the farther you fall, the higher you will rise. The higher you rise, the clear your future becomes. Failure is a gift. So welcome it.

So no food picture today. I promise I will post some up in the next update. =)

I don’t know why I adore these vivid cactus so much but they die easily and is very hard to take care of. =/

I love taking picture of the sky, whether it’s gloomy or sunny it’s always beautiful. All these pictures were taken by my horrible camera phone.

I nearly abandoned this blog for almost a year! Somehow, I ended up here and went back reading all of my posts tonight. It brought back so much memories, the good and bad of the life in San Francisco. I remember crying myself to sleep quite often when I was living there because I was really homesick. Being there on my own with no one by my side was terrible. I suffered a lot, learned a lot, met many horrible and wonderful people. Through it all I really don’t think I can ever live without my family. You only have one in your life. So why take them for granted? Spend as much time as you can with them because that unconditional love is a precious gift we all should treasure.

So what had changed during these last couple of months? Well, I permanently moved back home to LA  in June. I’m currently going to Woodbury University (a private school in Burbank). The environment there is so much different from Academy of Art in SF. It’s a lot more calm and spacious. The tuition cost so much more but I’m glad that I got scholarships or else I don’t think I can afford to go to there. Another thing that changed is that I’ve been single since September.  After experiencing the same situation twice, I think I lost a lot of faith. It just left me physically and emotionally exhausted. I just want to give my heart a good rest that it deserve. Actually, I am quite content with how things are right now.  I have more time to do things I love and devote more time into school. Though I have to admit it do get lonely sometime, but I won’t let that be the reason why I’m with someone. I really don’t see the point in dating different guys every month as if you’re changing clothes. I don’t know how some girls can do that, it’s quite sad. I think girls should really learn to appreciate and love themselves first. You shouldn’t rely on a guy to make you happy. Create your own happiness, it’s more fulfilling knowing that you fight hard for it, instead of expecting someone to bring it to you.

Lastly, I decided to start blogging again because I didn’t realize how these little posts can  hold so much memories that I’ve almost forgotten over the last couple of months. I think most of my readers probably left due to my absent but I’ll try to update every now and then. I promise I won’t abandon it again. =)

I don’t think I ever uploaded my SF apartment pictures. So here it is to those who are curious.

The living room, it’s super tiny isn’t it?

bathroom

tiny kitchen and a horrible mini refrigerator

roommate’s bed and my jigsaw puzzle on the table

my bed

window view

I’m sorry for my inconsistent update. I’m finally back home in LA for a  month break. It had been 2 weeks into my break. One week I spent with my sister in Peru and the other week was home with my boyfriend. I would love to post up all of my pictures from Peru but there are too many. So I’ll just post up a few alright?

Cusco, Peru (machu picchu) the Inka’s ruin

my sister and I

one of their many cathedral

their delicious food!

Recently I’ve been splurging quite a lot on cosmetic products. Not a good thing at all…

from top left-bottom right: Lorac powder compact, YSL matt touch compact, estee lauder maximum coverage foundation, estee lauder mascara, smashbox primer

So here’s my two cents on the products. Out of all the above, my  favorite is the YSL matt touch compact. I love the fancy packaging. The powder is very soft and lovely as well. The only downside was the price. It was the most expensive product I’ve ever purchased. I also like the estee lauder mascara very much. It lengthen and thicken my lashes without clumbing. I was scam into purchasing the Lorac compact. It suck and I don’t know why it’s sephora’s best seller. I love how the smashbox primer feel on my skin but the oily control isn’t good at all. I like the awesome coverage estee lauder foundation has and a little goes a long way. It feel light on my skin as well. The only problem is that it’s too matte. Also I think the sell lady gave me the wrong shade because it was too dark on my skin.

I never really own a complete set of skin care products before. But a few weeks ago I decided to try it out. So I looked into a lot of reviews and decided to purchased the complete set of skinfood sake peach skin care line. It suppose to help minimize your pores as well as moisturize your skin with vitamins A and C. I love how refreshing and tightening it feel on my skin. It’s not oily or greasy to apply. I probably haven’t use it long enough to see the result in my pores. But I think it’s a great skin care line for summer time.

I lost my Lioele BB cream when I went to my boyfriend’s friend’s house to swim the other day. I read some good reviews about missha perfect cover BB cream #23 and decided to give it a try. So we went to their store and he bought it for me. Later I found out we could of got it cheaper on ebay. The store totally rip us off! As for the product it doesn’t suit me. It’s a bit dark and grayish on my skin. The oil control is alright but not too good for oily skin. I think it’s best for medium/tan with pink undertone and dry-combination skin type.

Lets end this on a happy note, Kingsley gave me these lovely flowers at the airport. Isn’t he sweet? I taught him well. lol

Today post will be just pictures!

I love cooking so these are some of my yummy specialty.

I’ve been addicted to cookie house sandwich lately. It’s amazingly yummy!

My life is a bit twisted lately. I don’t even know where to begin. My auntie passed away a few days ago, my brother was sent to the hospital, my mom has been ill for quite a while now, and I got food poisoning. School and work also add a lot of stress on me. In addition, me and Kingsley is going on a break. At the end of the day when I feel so tired, the one person I count on the most can not understand or give me strength and courage to carry on. It’s quite sad…

I’m sorry that this update is a bit emo. I’ll make it up with lots of pictures alright? I went to sf zoo and golden gate park for a class project. So there’s a lot of pictures I want to share. I also noticed that I a get tons of visitors every day, even when I don’t update. But the sad part is that I rarely get any comment. I would really appreciate if you guys drop me a line because it’ll makes me happy. So don’t be shy. =)

“The Mile: People come into our lives and walk with us a mile, and then because of circumstance they only stay a while. They serve a need within the days that move so quickly by, and than are gone beyond our reach, we often wonder why. God only knows the reason that we meet and share a smile, why people come into our lives and walk with us a mile.”

Sorry it had been too long since I last updated. I’ve been very busy these days. I’ll do a quick update/recap for the past month or so. First, my birthday was a few weeks ago so I’m officially 21! Actually I still feel like a 9 years old kid. =) I went back home to LA last week for spring break. Catch up with my friends and we had a late bday celebration for me. To makes long story short I went to a gay bar for the first time accidentally but it was quite amusing. I also got me a job. Although it’s horrible I’ll stick with it for now. Me and Kingsley got in a big fight and almost broke up. Now I’m back here to SF for another two months before going back to LA again. lol so much information right?

just a random picture. I’m still a kid. =)

I promise I’ll come back to add more pictures tomorrow.

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!

I finally got around to update and fix this blog. School started about 3 weeks ago so I was really stressed out. But I’m adjusted to the schedule now so I have more time on the side to do other things. So today is basically my lazy day. I’ll just eat and watch movies all day since someone flaked out on me last minute. I hate people that does that. So irresponsible.

Anyway, this Valentine isn’t as bad as last year. I’m still spending it alone in my apartment. It’s not that bad since a movie night all to myself is quite relaxing. I wish my Valentine’s present was Kingsley shipping himself here to me. He’s out with his guy friends right now, which I find it kind of funny. haha a bunch of guys spend Vday together. But he’s here with me in spirit so it’s fine.

Everyone meet Buttercup, he’s a new member in our family. Poor Buttercup was stuff inside a small box for two days just to be ship here for me. Although I didn’t get a penguin or a puppy for Vday, Kingsley managed to get me a doggie so I’ll settle with it for now. =)

He also got me my favorite chocolate, a hilarious card, and the most randomest thing cheez-it. =)

This is my new cell phone. It’s a sonny ericson w350a. It’s really similiar to my old phone but I like the color and how thin it is.

This is  my makeup for today. Now a day I rarely wear makeup since I don’t feel the need to get all doll up for school. But since today is Vday I wanted to look pretty. Anyway, someone requested for me to post up the makeup I usually use. So here is what I used today. It’s nothing expensive since I’m a broke college student. But I love these drugstore brands because basically they’re made up of the same ingredients as the brand name cosmetics. My advice is explore and once you find the products that work best for you just stick to it.

1. my eyeshadow palette ( Kingsley bought this on ebay for me) so the colors are: light peach for the base, pink outer corner, light purple inner corner, white bottom inner corner.

2. Almay liquid liner black

3. Maybelline NY intense XXL mascara

4. cover girl blush rose silk (I love love this color)

5. revlon wink for pink lipsticks

Four more days till I’m back home to LA! Times do fly by fast. I still have two major finals to study for but I’m not really stressing out over it since it’s just a lot of memorizing. It’d been really cold here, I think it gonna rain a lot next week as well. I just love it! <3 I’m in a really good mood lately since the holidays are coming. Who wouldn’t be right?

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about everything and I realized today that I’m capable to do a lot of things. I really under estimate myself sometime. I should start thinking highly of myself, maybe then people will start to respect and know what I’m worth. I have a lot to offer and I shouldn’t let others pull me down.

I was bored, so I decided to do a small collage of  my pictures from the past couple of years. Notice any changes? It’s pretty much just the hair color right?

I thought this little pot was so cute. I wanted to buy it at the ferry building but it was quite pricey.

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I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned.

I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned.

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side.

I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye

I could sum up my weekend with just one word…BUSY! Friday I had a group meeting and we had to walked around the mall to look for products for our project. Saturday me and my roommate walked around union square and watched an early screening of 3D Bolt. It was a really cute movie. I also got thai food I’ve been craving for but it wasn’t that good. Nothing can beat food back in LA. We also ended up going to the market late at night. Didn’t get home till 11 something. On Sunday I went to another group meeting at the library. Then me and my roommate took the cable car to pier 39 to get in n out that I’ve been craving for the longest time! It was great! haha… For some unknown reason I’ve been eating like a monster these past couple of months. After in n out I got hungry again. It’s kinda crazy.I can’t support my eating habit anymore. I eat 4-5 times a day, not to mention snack in between and then at night I still get midnight munchy. haha… On top of that, I’m actually really sore right now from all the walking I did on the weekend. I’m really out of shape. All I do is eat and eat but rarely workout. haha… at this rate I’ll become obese in no time.

Ready for lots of picture this time?

On Saturday there was a protest for gay rights

It was crazy, this was the second time this month

look how the tourist look all fascinated. You don’t get to see this every day.

SF Westfield mall, super nice right?

the dome in the mall

there’re 2 theaters, one is in the mall and this one is outside near union square

inside the theater. my camera phone suck

the awesome view in the theater. You see that big plasma screen?

I’m on the cable car and that’s how the traffic look haha

another cable car passing by

SF in n out!!! <3

this guys is crazy good with spray paint

Sometimes there’s nothing to say.

Sometimes silence expresses more than words.

Picking up the phone, dialing a number..

it can do more damage than good

but humans are afflicted with this obsessive desire, to talk things to death.

So we make things worse, just by trying to make it better

Today was really sunny and warm! I’m so surprise that there wasn’t any wind either. In addition to the nice weather, I’m in a really good mood and I can’t stop smiling. =D

Anyway this weekend gonna be super busy. I have 2 groups projects meeting to go to and all this homework I have to do. I might go watch Zack and Miri making a porno this Saturday. I heard it’s a really funny movie. So I can’t wait for that.

Also last thing I want to get off my mind, so last night I watched This Christmas with my roommate and it really gotten me into the Christmas spirit. I’m really looking forward to that and doing Christmas shopping. Gotta start thinking of what to get for people. So anyhow I’m surprise that I suddenly had an urge to write in here again. So the whole not gonna update in a while thing isn’t so true after all. =P

This painting is call First date with the rain. I’m so in love with it right now.

We fight for mainly one reason

Cause when you fight you truly find out

How much you’re willing to take

Before you break. And when you

Break you need to see if that other person

Truly cares enough to make everything okay again

Cause without fighting

Liars of love could be walking all over the place